The Back Story Of "SUZUKI SOHMA"

Mutsuki and Sawa!!

The photo above has nothing to do with what I'm about to talk about now haha I just thought it looked cute.

The reason why I like the name 'Suzuki Sohma' so much is because.. I don't know, I just liked it. Well, at first I though of it as just a plain name that I find interesting when I read a manga entitled, V.B Rose. One of the characters was named Suzuki and I instantly liked the name. And then I added Sohma at the end because I love the Sohmas of Fruits Basket so so much.

I started to get attached with that name when I stumbled upon an Anime website (sadly, I forgot what it was) that had a chatroom or some sort at the bottom of the main page. My username was Suzukisohma and then I made friends with a bunch of people from all over the world there. They were really nice to me but some of them were.. weird.

They nicknamed me 'Suzu-chan' and it was so cute! After a few months, the name had a special place in my heart. Even on gaiaonline, my username is Suzukisohma. I'm like a mild otaku kind of girl lol.

Thus, the forgotten Suzuki Sohma is reborn!

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MUTSUKI SOHMA & others

Mutsuki Sohma; the charming, beautiful, yet lazy, son of Yuki Sohma and Machi Kuragi.

If you were a fan of Fruits Basket, like me, then this would all make sense to you. lol. It's complete 100% torture for falling in love with fictional characters. I have fallen in love with them so much and it saddens me because they are not real. I really can't stop because I hope that there would be real people that are like these characters.

Somehow, I have found out the type of guy that I like. It all shows that I really really like the mysterious, quiet, loner, funny, weird sense of humor (like me), likes to glare at people, very kind-hearted, nice, a good person, gives off the 'don't talk to me' vibe, attractive, caring, handsome and cute, serious but has a playful side, is different when with the girl he likes, very smart, strong, knows martial arts, ambitious, prioritize his studies and... Well basically, Yuki Sohma is the one. If ever in my life I suddenly meet someone like him for real, I'd probably faint, die, revive, and become friends with him in an instant!

Hello

....It's me. Hahaha ok sorry

I'm not sure why people are reading my posts because they are weird and uncommon and I always go out of topic. It annoys me a lot but I can't help it. I have so many thoughts until it just goes off-track to nowhere.

I don't know who exactly is reading all this, but thank you.. I think. I've abandoned my blog for so long. I only posted ONE entry in 2015. One. I don't know what happened haha. I'm surprised that people somehow found my blog and read some of the posts. The old ones are embarrassing though, I facepalm every time I reread them.

If one of you know me in real life or social network or we both know each other or we're friends, then, HI! Please don't judge me, I have issues. Sigh.

Alright, so.. have a nice day!

Favorite Memories

Since I love to keep good memories, I felt like making a post about those things so that one day when I'm older, I would come back to this whenever bad things happen and I know this would make me feel happy again.

Cartoons/TV Shows:

• Adventure Time
• Regular Show
• Chowder
• The Amazing World Of Gumball
• How I Met Your Mother
• Teen Titans

Animes/Mangas:

• Fruits Basket
• Kaichou Wa Maid-sama!
• Ouran High School Host Club
• Special A
• Bloody Kiss
• Fruits Basket Another
• Momoiro Heaven!
• Haru Matsu Bokura

Movies/Books:

• The Twilight Saga
• The Hunger Games Series
• The Maze Runner Series
• The Divergent Series
• Tron: Legacy
• Interstellar
• Cloud Atlas

Things To Do When Bored:

• Start drawing again
• Start painting again
• Start reading again
• Bake cookies (Because I love cookies, a lot)
• Watch Anime (Because Animes are hilarious)
• Read manga (Yes, hilarious)
• Clean my room lol
• Play Habbo, Gaiaonline, Migoland (If it comes back)
• Focus on Instashop business
• Delete unwanted photos on laptop
• Actually sell/give away old clothes
• GO OUT WITH FRIENDS
• Sleep
• Organize wardrobe
• Improve drawing skills (hehe)
• Look at ship photos of fav anime and cry because they're not real (torture)
• Open tumblr, cry
• Delete unwanted photos on Facebook
• Laugh at people on the timeline on Twitter
• Think about the future, cry
• Think about the past, cry
• Play games
• Play The Sims 3/4, SPORE, Yandere Simulator, Life Is Strange
• bye

Memories

I, for one, love to hold on to memories as stated in one of my previous post. It hurts a lot though, because nothing lasts forever. But, that never stopped me from keeping pieces of paper that has people's writings in them, photos of people who I do not talk to anymore, old school's empty exercise books that I know I'll never use, and much much more.

It's kind of depressing, really. Sometimes I would try to remember all those good memories behind the useless stuff I still keep, and it saddens me because it will never happen again. And then, I would mentally put it all away, in a tightly-closed-lid container, and forget about it, over and over. Whenever I feel like it, I would just do it again. I would open the container, smile at the memories, and close it back.

I think it's just a small thing to other people. But it's almost everything to me. Because without it, everything would be meaningless. I live for the good memories, bad ones.. Well, I'm not exactly fond of. But, that's just a part of life, when you want the good things, you have to also take the bad.

Maybe if people appreciated life more, things wouldn't seem so bad after all

Anime/Manga!!

Anime/Manga is incredibly underrated and it saddens me so very much. I'm scared that it might one day be forgotten and slowly disappear, forever. That probably won't happen but, still. It's possible since kids nowadays are much too advanced or just don't know what the hell anime/manga is.

I'm glad for being born just at the right time. And also for my grandmother to be having a very kind maid that likes to recommend me amazing Animes that she always watch on TV. I'm absolutely thankful for that. If not, I wouldn't know how cool the Anime world is. (Like some people are now)

Anime/Manga is cool but people are too ignorant or too egoistic to watch it. I've fallen in love with it so many times and really, it has made myself become the person I am now. The characters are all so lively, hilarious, exaggerating but fun and many more. No offence, but, I'd rather watch Animes or read mangas rather than watch all those typical love dramas on TV at my country right now. It's all so cliche and weird. So disappointed, really.

I love Fruits Basket, Kaichou Wa Maid-sama!, Ouran High School Host Club and Fruits Basket Another. I like Naruto, Fairy Tail, Special A and Tokyo Ghoul too but not to the point where I'll obsess over them. I'm most obsessed about Fruits Basket though. Whenever I watch the Anime or read the manga, it just makes me happy and then when I finally finish watching/reading them, I'll get this empty feeling in my heart like I don't know what to do anymore after that. I know, it's ridiculous. But, yeah, it has affected my life so much. A little too much, I think haha.

The Boy In The Gold Vest

I went to The Curve today at Damansara. And, as usual, my parents would sit at a restaurant/cafe somewhere while I walk around, buy some things, or just.. walk.

And, as always, I would get cat-calls, random stranger guys saying "Hi" to me and many more. I'm used to it now because I know they do all those things just because I'm alone. It's always the same at other malls, even Pavilion. They did a big mistake in doing all those things to me because I'm shy and quiet so I would just smile or look down or ignore or act as if they don't exist or just feel embarrassed and look down while shaking my head. I'd facepalm though but that would be too over lol. Most of them are about my age or just a few years older so I didn't really care much. Believe me, I have a lot of guy friends and they all do the same thing. Ugh.

I don't know who all of them are and I'm pretty sure I only met them on that day and then never again after that. That's just how it is. Shopping Malls are the place where you walk by strangers you'll never see again after that.

Shame...

This blog is embarrassing. Well, I am embarrassing. Sigh..

But, nevertheless, it's already too late. I've already made a new blog so that this one would be private and the new one would be public and only contain my own personal opinions about general things (I guess..?) but looks like that's not happening, lol. So, I guess, I'm just going to stick to posting random things in this, once a year haha damn.

I know I'll look back and read all of this, laughing my ass off while hearing some old favourite songs, being nostalgic because I'm always like that. I tend to hold on to things that has to do with memories. I don't know why and it's pretty depressing but.. meh. That's just how it is.

Till next time x