Old feelings come back

I miss him. I miss him a lot. I really thought that I've gotten over him completely but no, I was wrong. Well I think I did get over him but just for awhile. Just until the time when Hazeem called me and asked about him. When the phone call ended, I started to think about him again. And suddenly, I just realised that I really miss him. I miss talking to him, making jokes and having a great time together. I miss when he said he misses me and loves me. I miss a all of it. Is it normal to be obsessed with your ex? Haha, I don't think so. But I don't know, I can't do anything about it. Now I'm hooked again and I don't think I can ever get off. 

My friends have asked me, "you miss him, huh?" and I was shocked. Shocked and speechless. That was the time that I realised that I do miss him. I haven't thought about it for a long time. Now it's making me sad again. We haven't talked for 2 months and it's killing me. Hazeem have also asked me, "do you still want him back?" and I didn't know what to say. Do I really? I don't know. Maybe if we talked to each other again, then I'd know. But I don't think we will. He's just too egoistic to say a single "hi" to me and I'm too stupid to say it too. I guess I'm just wasting my time thinking about him. I should stop. But I can't. This is making me crazy. Or maybe being crazy is all that I need.