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Back to Reality

Well hello there! So, i'm at Ampang now. Yeah, i'm back home. Well, i had fun at Kota Bharu actually. But not that much fun since i was the only kid there the whole week. Seriously, it was kinda boring. Oh well. Hmm, so yeah, school's gonna start in 7 days. Let the count down begin! Haha. Ok dammit. I feel like i'm not satisfied at all. Really. The whole school holiday, it felt like nothing. When the school holiday had already started for days already, it was boring. I wanted to go to school badly. But now, i regretted that i didn't go out and watch a movie with my friends at that time. My school holiday = wasted. Damn!

I haven't bought my school stuff yet. Maybe i'll do it this week. Well of course i have to do it this week since i don't have any other week besides this one -.- So, i have to go and buy alat tulis, school shoes, clothes. I think that's about it. Nothing much i guess. Eh. Okay. So yeah, back to reality. Homework especially. And not to mention waking up early in the morning. And looking at numbers. And words. Lots of words. And exercises that you have to solve. Yeahhhhh, how exciting! Yay...

Well, no matter how much you hate it, you have to do it anyway. Ugh, great. Oh well. So, i hope next year will be great. This year was, well kinda okay. Ahaha. Yeah, reality sucks. Nothing much you can do about it. You just have to live with it. And deal with it. Deal with the facts. Deal with everything. Redha jelah. Yeah, i'm being weird again. Haha. I'm sleepy actually. Haha lol kbai.

xoxo

The stupid fight

Hey there. Just wanted to make an entry about the fight i had. Just wanted to write it here so i could read it in the future and probably laugh about it. Haha. Anyway, i fought with a form 2 girl. Yes, her. Well, you see, when Hafiz and i was together, in August, all of the sudden he didn't text me. At all. For one whole freaking day. And sometimes, 2-3 days. I wondered why. So, i stalked him. Including the girls that's been well, talking to him. Wanna know why? Well, in MY school, if a girl likes a guy, then that guy is taken, she'd backoff. Yeah, that's my school. But, in HIS school, they become more gedik and like, seriously gedik. So, of course i'd stalk them. 

No, it's not jealousy. This is insecurity. Yes, those are two different things. Insecurity means, afraid of losing that person. So, you'll become paranoid. Jealousy means, jealousy. Jealousy just means controlling someone you love and not letting him/her talk to any other girl/boy. Jealousy cannot be controlled. Insecurity, sometimes you can. And yeah, i did control it. I cried instead of telling him to just stop talking to other girls. I didn't control him. So NO, i'm not a 'queen control' as YOU thought i was. Stop judging me dammit. So anyway, yeah i was insecure. But i kept it to myself. I blogged it. I simply, blogged about it. And then, she found out. She got mad. Pffts. I was mad because she was menggedik, and she scolded me back. Weird, huh? 

So anyway, i felt weird. Because, well yeah i stalked her. I admit it. And she got mad because i stalked her. But then again, how did she know i stalked her? She must've stalked me too then. Heh. Hypocrites. So, we fought and stuff. My friends came butting in and scolded her. She uploaded the fight on her facebook. And we, 'immature people' did not do that. You say we're immature. We're keeping quiet while you go on kecoh about it. Is that you call being matured? No, it's not. Dream on. Not even close to matured. Pffts. Anyway, then my friends and I just kept quiet and she made a 'promise' that she'd stop talking about me. Well that's good. Good for you. Alhamdulillah. 

After that, she thought she 'won'. I have no idea WHAT exactly did she win. There was no metal included. Nothing had to do with winning or whatever she thought there was. Oh, not to think about the picture where you took a picture with Hafiz. You must be so proud. Great, huh? And then the 'sayang sayang' thing. Hmm, weird. You said you didn't like him. So why the hell did you do all those things?! Seriously. I don't understand you. You say what you don't mean. Stop lying. Stop pretending. Stop saying i'm stupid. Cause i know i'm not. So, just shutup. Shut the hell up. Saying i'm stupid, won't make you smart. Remember that. And, you want me to kill myself? Oh, great. Cause i'm not planning to do that. Sorry to spoil your plan. Your stupid plan. Heh.

Well, i'm glad that you know what's right and what's wrong now. Yes, i'm glad. I pray that you know those things forever. I mean, you said if you meet me, you want to embarrass me in front of everyone. How exactly are you going to do that? I wonder how. Really. And yeah, is that matured? Again, no. It's not. Not even a little. You should know that when when a guy has a girlfriend, LEAVE THEM ALONE. Seriously. It's none of your business if we fight or whatever. You're such a busybody person. I don't care that you guys are 'bestfriends' or whatever. Seriously, i don't. It has nothing to do with me. And I have nothing to do with you. So please, stop saying things about me. Stop judging me. Stop thinking bad things about me. Just, stop. Stop everything. Assalamualaikum!

xoxo

And so the story begins

Here's an entry about what's been going on. Mhmm, well Andzar and i have been close. We'd text each other and stuff. Everyday, really. Alkeef, well.. he said he just wants to be friends. I was relieved cause i don't have to hurt him anymore. We aren't talking to each other right now. Err, okay. And so, Andzar still likes me. He likes me since the month of October. I'm starting to like him too right now. And that's a good thing, right? Err, maybe. Just, maybe.

So anyway, i still haven't accepted him though. Well, Tasnim has already told me that he's a playboy. Yeah, i'm scared of that. His friends told me he's not a playboy. I'm confused right now. I'll just let Allah decide. Sometimes Andzar and I would somewhat fight. Something like that i guess. He's sometimes not that serious. He'd make jokes that would make me feel sometimes a little bit hurt. Oh well.

xoxo

Random entry

Well hello there! Ahah, yes i'm bored. Just wanted to update about something. I'm at Kota Bharu, Kelantan right now. Or should i call it, New Castle? lol ok lame. Anyway, i'm so bored here. Sometimes i'll be hyper and disturb some people. Haha. Funny. Well, i dunno what to say. I'm listening to Bruno Mars's song, "It will rain". Yeah, i like that song. It reminds me of something. Something.. hmm. Well, how are you guys doing? You guys ok? No? Or am i talking to myself? Oh hell yeah i am. Boredom is so boring like seriously. Eh. I'm craving for Milo Supreme Mcflurry now. But McDonald's is so far from my grandma's house. Damn! Oh well.

I'm okay. I'm fine. I guess. I have tons of stories. But i'll write it later cause i'm lazy. Haha. I'm bored. Maigoodness. My boringness will make you people feel bored. Yeah i know. But i don't care cause i'm awesome liddis 8) Hehe. Eh, i miss my friends and my cousins. I want to go to school, but then again i don't. Haha lol. Hmm, i miss Tasnim, Anis, Hannah, Nihad, Aiman, Alif and Najihah. Seriously, bila nak jumpa lagiii? :c As for my friends, i miss Farisah, Qistina, Putry, Syakirin, Ummi, Myra, Diana and Erianna. I miss all of them. I hope we'll be in the same class together. If not, then that's just sad.

I miss you guys a lot. I miss school too. Well, not really haha. But yeah, i miss you guys. I miss the time when we would go to the toilet ramai-ramai without getting caught from the teachers. Yeah, i miss that. I laff you gais so machh ♥ I hope next year we'll be in the same class. Aminn!




With love, Madihah.