Bestfriends

Bestfriends.
The people who stick with you through thick and thin (Other than your family, of course)
Some people have only one bestfriend, some have many. Well for me, I don't have a lot of bestfriends but they are enough to make me happy when I'm sad. My bestfriends are Tasnim (my cousin), Puteri, Sabrina, Alisya and Hanis.

We all have bestfriends and also ex-bestfriends. I have both. Well, they become my "ex-bestfriends" because we didn't talk for a long time and they all got the wrong idea of me hating them and etc etc. But we got our stories straight and said sorry but we didn't get back together. I don't really know why but I do miss them though. I really hope that one day, my ex-bestfriends and my current bestfriends would all be bestfriends, in the future. That'd be nice.

I tell almost everything to my bestfriends. They are my diary, my sisters and my family. I can't imagine how I would live if I hadn't met them. We do almost everything together. If someone can't do it, none of us will. We stick together and rarely fight. If we did, it would only last for a few minutes and we'd get back together, make jokes and laugh together again. We help each other and sometimes, cut class together haha lol no I'm just joking (maybe) hehehe

I'm glad I got to know them. I love them all so much! I really hope we'd stay together, forever. InsyaAllah...


With love, Madihah.

School and some other stuff

Hi there! Haven't updated about school for awhile. So yeah, here it goes!

I got up at 6am and got ready. Went to school and arrived at 7.20am. Talked with Puteri, Sabrina and Alisya. Got into class and learnt some stuff lol I don't even remember. Then, it was Life Skills subject, we had to go to the life skills class. Puteri and I got down the stairs while Alisya and Sabrina was behind us. As we got down, we went the other way to the stairs beside it cause we saw cikgu Azman. Puteri and I laughed cause we were shocked lol. As we were walking, I saw Danial Ariffin and his friends right beside us. I walked right beside them quickly till I almost ran haha I was shy and I don't even know why. Then, Puteri and I was in front of them. Puteri and I still laughed like a lot haha then one of Danial's friend teased Puteri haha. We walked quickly to the class and got in straightaway.

Sabrina and I would always catch Danial looking at us. Sometimes when I'm sitting alone in my class, I would see him and his friend walk by my class. And then Danial would look at me, but when I look at him, he'd look somewhere else. Funny...

So yeah, bye x

Pavilion with Tasnim

Last week, I went to Pavilion with my cousin, Tasnim. She's the same age as me, but she stays at Bangi. So anyway, we hung out at Pavilion, just the two of us, for the first time haha.

We arrived there around 11.30am. There weren't many people there at that day. We went to the cinema first to buy tickets. We wanted to watch "The Watch" hahaha yeah "watch the watch" hahaha ok continue
We were afraid to watch that movie cause it's 18+ but we bought it anyway lol the movie wasn't THAT bad at all. Sheesh. So after we both bought the tickets, we had 15 minutes to go around Pavilion so yeah we did. Went to Gardian, Speedy and bought some albums. After that, we went back to the cinema to watch the movie. When we arrived there, our hearts were pounding like hell! We were so scared haha but we cover line lah. 

We gave the worker the tickets and yay! we got in. We ran up the stairs cause we were terrified lol. The cinema weren't full as usual so we just sit there and watched the movie. The movie was awesome! We loved the movie cause it was a comedy and we wanted to watch something that's funny and that movie was perfect! Later on, we roamed around again and then went to the food court cause we were hungry. We both ordered Beef Dolsot Bibimbap from the korean stall. It was freaking delicious man! I totally recommend you people to taste that thanggg

While we were eating, we talked about some stuff and Tasnim spazzed because there were a lot of korean people around us haha. Pavilion is usually fulled with american people but I don't know why for some reason at that time, korean people were all around there haha. Tasnim got lucky I guess x)

After we finished eating, we went to the Famous Amos cookies stall cause I'm obsessed with cookies, yes. Hehe. 

And then we walked all around Pavilion and bought some stuff and then at 5pm, we went home. So, yeah, there it goes! Haha bye

xxx
Madihah.

Alone.

Hey there! Now I'm at home, alone. My mom is at Kota Bharu, my dad is working, my sister is at the hospital, my brother is somewhere... I don't know where lol.

So freaking bored right now. I don't know what to do except online, watch tv, blogging and other stuff. And I'm starting to play club penguin again. Oh it's some type of online chatting game like gaiaonline, migoland, zwinky, habbo and etc. It's quite fun though even though I have grown up.

I've been good, I guess. A little bit okay/fine or whatever. Well sometimes I do feel emo and lonely. But that's just something that I have to deal with and get over with/move on and such. I have to accept the fact that it's over even if I didn't even want it to. So, yeah. Bye.

xoxo, Madihah.

Over. For good. Or bad? I don't know.

I can't believe it happened again. I mean, I really thought that we'd be together forever as how you would always say. I'm still in shock and it probably would never end.

It ended on Monday, 23rd of July. 

I can't believe that you did that to me. Cheating on me. Like, WHAT? *sigh* 

You gave a lot of excuses for doing it, and then say that you don't want to leave me. But, it was already too late. You should've thought twice. Or even, thrice. Or more. I feel betrayed. Betrayed by him. His friends. And some other people. They know and they saw, but they never said anything. I mean, I was nice to them for god's sake! And they betrayed me. He betrayed me. That stupid btch betrayed me. I seriously wish that I could go to your school and just look at you and ask, why?

I loved you. A lot. Even though you did a lot of things that made me mad and ignore you, I still loved you. I know that you loved me too. But you were just too stupid to handle it in a right way. It was like you had a 'backup plan' for whenever I ignore you. You had someone to talk to when I wasn't there. So, you didn't really care. Yes, I know. And, I know that you know that I wanted to break up even before I knew the truth. I almost did it. But, I didn't do it for a good reason. I didn't do it because I still loved you. So much. And it hurts to know that you never really cared at the first place.

You expect me to give you another chance? No, never. You disappointed me. I've been giving out chances and all you ever do is let me down. Now, I see you talking to other girls like it was nothing, and also your twitcon.. wow. Just, wow. And yeah, I was right. I was right all along. 

I miss the times when you told me that you like me. At that time, I was the center of attention. Of your attention. You didn't talk to other girls, but me. You really really liked me at that time. I miss that. And the time when you tried really hard to make me like you back. You'd text me everyday, all day, non-stop. Those three months of you liking me were amazing. 

"Hope you're happy without me." you said, on my birthday, last month.

I'm not really sure what you mean by that but yeah, I hope the same for you. (maybe)

"I miss you." you said, on the first day of Hari Raya Aidilfitri.

At that time, you made me confused. Like a lot. But I just acted as if it was nothing and just replied your whatsapp. 

I still love you I fcking hate you right now. And also that girl. I feel like throwing a really big chair at you both and cutting off your legs because... Yeah whatever.

Well, I can't do anything about it now. It hurts though. It still hurts. A lot. And I miss you. So much. Thanks for everything. Bye x

With love, Madihah.

Choral speaking

Hi, there! I haven't updated my blog in a while. I miss blogging hihi

So anyway, I got involved in choral speaking (For the first time!) for my school's Hari Alam Sekitar. It was quite fun but also exhausting. My classmates and I would stay back after school to practise, practise and practise.

At first, we were awful. Reaaaally awful. We wouldn't synchronise and our voices would be slow and terabur gila. It was just terrible and our conducter would scold us a lot of times.
After a lot of practising, we got better and better. Our conducter was quite satisfied with that. Our actions were synchronised, our voices were loud and our conducter complimented us saying, "IT WAS AWESOME!" well that was before we had to perform in front of the whole school.

On Monday, we came early to practise some more. Some people forgot the actions and stuff but it was okay cause they remembered again. Before we went on the stage, we had to wait at the back. We were all nervous cause we were scared that we'd do something wrong and mess up the whole thing. Sabrina and I was shivering and jumping all around the place! It was terrifiying, really. We were also nervous because we've never performed on stage before. Let alone stand on it in front of the whole fudging school.

"Kami mempersembahkan, kelas 2 Cemerlang bagi merasmikan Hari Alam Sekitar ini!" was our queue. We were like, "omg omg!" haha. We went on stage and Sabrina and I can't stop smiling. All the guys are right in front of us and it was really embarrassing! Danial was also in front of us and we didn't even look at him haha.

It was really nerve-wrecking to perform on stage. Especially when someone made a mistake...

Yup, someone made a mistake. He accodently said a sentence that wasn't supposed to be said. A lot of the guys laughed. The guys laughed a lot of times. It wasn't even that funny. Gosh..
Sabrina and I got really angry at the guys that laughed at us. But we went on like nothing happened. We worked our butts off but it was awful! Some people were slow and sometimes they'd forget their actions. It was embarrassing and disappointing.

After we were done, all of the sudden, everyone cheered for us. But we were still not satisfied with the people who laughed at us. We got off the stage and went to take our bags at the back. Sabrina and I went to the canteen and everyone looked at us, weirdly. Sabrina and I felt paranoid so we ran right pass through the canteen.

All of us got the certificate for entering the choral speaking thing but it was still embarrassing. Oh well, can't do anything about it.

I'm never gonna do that ever again.

Hugs & kisses, Madihah.