I feel so free now. Why? Because I've just finished my final exam! It was quite okay. I was a bit stressed with it but I kept calm and hoped for the best. Truth be told, it was actually fun! Because everyone's like studying and all, being stressed out together and working together so that all of us doesn't fail haha
But there's this one really sad thing happened yesterday. The teacher gave the history paper to everyone and, you know what? I failed. Yeah, I failed my history test. By only two marks. I felt reaaaally sad. I felt like crying but I just acted normal. My friends passed the test but I failed. I am a failure. I don't know how am I going to tell my parents about it. So, yeah next year I'll go down one class because of one fail. Damn
Today, I got my science paper and I got 77! I felt relieved for that. Phew! Oh and mathematics paper was quite easy. That was the first time that I felt like that. I hope I'll get an A for it. Or even a B+ that'd be nice.
English was easy, Malay Language was okay. The others, well I don't know, okay I guess?
Now, I can go anywhere with my friends and all. Or so I thought.. But in reality, I'll just stay at home, being bored, watch tv, sleep, play the computer and yeah, just that. It's so boring and I want to go out but my friends are all busy and my cousins live a billion miles away so yeah, I'm gonna waste my holiday with being bored.
On the exam week, I'd have something to do. I'd have to study non-stop, making notes and all that. But now, I have nothing to do. I don't know what to do to make me occupied. It's. just. so. boring. And now I have nothing else to say so bye!
Madihah.
November 2, 2012
Speechless
To tell you the truth, the title has nothing to do with what I'm going to write here. It's titled speechless because I don't know what to name the title. Hahahaha k
So this is a story about a girl and a guy who-shall-not-be-named who goes to the same school. They knew each other from Twitter, but they didn't talk/mention and etc. until a few months after that. But the girl had a boyfriend at that time so she didn't want to get too close to other guys.
On one fine day, it was the month of August. The girl's relationship was going downhill and soon, she and her boyfriend broke up. She reconnected with the guy who-shall-not-be-named and they became close. The guy would always mention her on twitter and say hi or whatever.
The next day, the girl and her siblings went to bazaar Ramadhan to buy some food for breaking fast. They walked, walked and walked. The girl saw the guy at one of the stalls. The guy was selling Roti John with his other friends. They walked by the guy's stall. As they were walking, the guy said loudly, "Roti John! Roti John! __(girl's name)__, Roti John!". The girl was shy and scared because of her siblings so she just looked down and laughed a little. The guy just smiled at the girl, showing no shyness at all towards her siblings. The girl was relieved because her siblings acted cool.
At school, when the last bell rang, the girl and her friends went to the front of the school. The guy and his friends were there too. The guy came to her, really close and asked, "Where's my biscuits?" while smiling. The girl, being shy as ever, just mumbled and said things like, "*laugh* I don't have any haaaaa...." and then there was awkward silence where the girl and guy had nothing to say. So the guys just left her and went to his friends.
And so they were still pretty close for a few months. They whatsapp-ed each other and whatnot.
But then, all of the sudden, the guy didn't say "hi" to her at all. He instantly became a stranger to the girl. And the guy was okay with it. Showing no care or anything towards it. The girl wasn't really sad about it because the girl had expected it to happen.
The girl got used to being ignored and all so she just lived her life, without him. It's not a sad story but it just shows that even the person you're really close to, can even leave you in the end.
Like everyone else, he left the girl too.
And now, the girl has to deal with it, alone.
xoxo, Madihah.
So this is a story about a girl and a guy who-shall-not-be-named who goes to the same school. They knew each other from Twitter, but they didn't talk/mention and etc. until a few months after that. But the girl had a boyfriend at that time so she didn't want to get too close to other guys.
On one fine day, it was the month of August. The girl's relationship was going downhill and soon, she and her boyfriend broke up. She reconnected with the guy who-shall-not-be-named and they became close. The guy would always mention her on twitter and say hi or whatever.
The next day, the girl and her siblings went to bazaar Ramadhan to buy some food for breaking fast. They walked, walked and walked. The girl saw the guy at one of the stalls. The guy was selling Roti John with his other friends. They walked by the guy's stall. As they were walking, the guy said loudly, "Roti John! Roti John! __(girl's name)__, Roti John!". The girl was shy and scared because of her siblings so she just looked down and laughed a little. The guy just smiled at the girl, showing no shyness at all towards her siblings. The girl was relieved because her siblings acted cool.
At school, when the last bell rang, the girl and her friends went to the front of the school. The guy and his friends were there too. The guy came to her, really close and asked, "Where's my biscuits?" while smiling. The girl, being shy as ever, just mumbled and said things like, "*laugh* I don't have any haaaaa...." and then there was awkward silence where the girl and guy had nothing to say. So the guys just left her and went to his friends.
And so they were still pretty close for a few months. They whatsapp-ed each other and whatnot.
But then, all of the sudden, the guy didn't say "hi" to her at all. He instantly became a stranger to the girl. And the guy was okay with it. Showing no care or anything towards it. The girl wasn't really sad about it because the girl had expected it to happen.
The girl got used to being ignored and all so she just lived her life, without him. It's not a sad story but it just shows that even the person you're really close to, can even leave you in the end.
Like everyone else, he left the girl too.
And now, the girl has to deal with it, alone.
xoxo, Madihah.
November 1, 2012
Strangers
Strangers.
Yes, strangers. But not those kind of strangers, I mean the strangers that we were once so close but all of the sudden, it all just, stops. You don’t talk to them anymore, they don’t even show any effort to say a simple “hi” to you and yeah, everything just, stops.
I’ve been in that situation a bunch of times. It really hurts. It makes me don’t want to get close to anyone anymore. It makes me scared. I hate it when someone leaves me. I just hate it. I even feel like punching those people. If I had known that they’d leave me in the end, I wouldn’t even talk to them. I would’ve just ignored them. To save myself, of course.
Well, I got used to all of this. It’s not a new thing to me now. It’s just one of those phases where you HAVE to ignore everyone in order to make them realize that I’m actually important to them. But I doubt that’ll ever happen so, whatever.
In conclusion of it all, never, I repeat, never, leave someone hanging and making them all look stupid. And if you do it anyway, don’t come back to that person out of the blue and by just saying “I’m sorry”. Why? Because it doesn’t work that way.
If you were in their shoes, you’d know how they felt.
Yes, strangers. But not those kind of strangers, I mean the strangers that we were once so close but all of the sudden, it all just, stops. You don’t talk to them anymore, they don’t even show any effort to say a simple “hi” to you and yeah, everything just, stops.
I’ve been in that situation a bunch of times. It really hurts. It makes me don’t want to get close to anyone anymore. It makes me scared. I hate it when someone leaves me. I just hate it. I even feel like punching those people. If I had known that they’d leave me in the end, I wouldn’t even talk to them. I would’ve just ignored them. To save myself, of course.
Well, I got used to all of this. It’s not a new thing to me now. It’s just one of those phases where you HAVE to ignore everyone in order to make them realize that I’m actually important to them. But I doubt that’ll ever happen so, whatever.
In conclusion of it all, never, I repeat, never, leave someone hanging and making them all look stupid. And if you do it anyway, don’t come back to that person out of the blue and by just saying “I’m sorry”. Why? Because it doesn’t work that way.
If you were in their shoes, you’d know how they felt.
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