Dreams

I had the greatest dream last night!
It started of like this, I went to Las Vegas with some of my friends. We went to a convention centre. It was about plants, wood and stuff. We went to the theater to watch some of the people there talk about how wood were made. And, one of the spokeperson who is a girl, made a 16 year old boy and girl out of wood. They were really life-like and they really looked like humans. The girl joined the other group while the boy joined my group with some of my friends. I forgot his named but it started with an 'M'. He was really handsome and very kind.

After the presentation was finished, M, my friends and I went to some places. We rode a van and visited a lot of interesting places. M and I was really close, we were like a couple! We kept on holding hands and followed each other everywhere. It was amazing. *sigh* ...so anyway, we went to malls and stuff and stayed together for 1 whole week. We talked to each other and connected a lot. And I think there was a part when my friends, M and I had to run from someone. Haha, that was fun. After we ran, we walked to somewhere while M and I held hands.

All of us went to another convention centre and learned more about woods and stuff. We sat in the theater room again on one row. A few girls behind us kept on saying that M is ugly and whatnot, and I scolded them until the presentation started. So after that, we went to another mall. Suddenly, M said, "I'm gonna die tomorrow..." and I felt kind of sad. He said that his creator forgot to put something on him so that he'll live longer. But I expected it to happen anyway since he was made completely out of wood. I didn't cry, though. I just felt sad. I told a friend of mine about it and she also felt sad.

I held his hand and said that I'll be okay. So he took my hand and we walked together the whole mall. After that, we rode the van until it was already nighttime. We stopped at a mosque to pray. My friends and I got in and there were a lot of people in there. And then I realized that I can't pray. So I got out, and searched for the van but I couldn't find it.

And then, I had to ride one of my teacher's car. He helped me to find the van. But we couldn't find it anywhere so he dropped me off at the street. Suddenly, it was already daytime. There were a lot of people there, celebrating something. So, I walked pass everyone and searched for the van. There were too many cars so I had to look slowly.

I still couldn't find the van. And then, I woke up... to the sound of my niece crying.
It was kind of upsetting since I didn't get to see M before he died. I didn't want the dream to end at all. I wanted to know the ending. The real one. But, I guess, the ending is that I just didn't get to see him. So, yeah. That's it, I guess. I do miss him, though. The guy in my dreams. Yeah, I miss him. A lot.

xxx

14.12.12

Muhammad Amirul Eiman bin Azmi.

He's 15 years old and he is the guy who stole my heart. It started of when I was at the US of A. He's bestfriends with Andzar and the other kolo dudes. We started to talk on Twitter. Something happened so he mention-ed me. We talked and stuff and then he followed me, so I followed him back.

After a few days, I wrote on twitter saying I want to go and watch Breaking Dawn part 2 again but someone needs to accompany me. And he said he wants to do it. So he asked for my number, and I gave it to him. The next day, we started whatsapp-ing each other and stuff. But we fight a lot hahaha. And then after a few days of talking everyday, without me realizing, I was starting to fall for him. I'd get excited whenever he says a single "hi" to me and I would look forward to him whatsapp-ing me. But I didn't want to get my hopes too high so I tried to avoid it. I didn't want to get hurt again so I just acted as if like he was just a friend to me.

And then he told me that I was the only person to talk to him a lot. That made me happy a bit. Hehe.
And then, on the 14th of December, his cousin took his phone and told me that Eiman likes me. I didn't want to believe it so I just said things like I don't believe him and all that. After that, Eiman took his phone again. And this happened :-

Him: Why did you talk to him? :-(
Me: Haha, I was bored.
Him: I hate you
Me: I hate you too!
Him: But I can't hate you
Me: Oh, why?
Him: Because what my cousin said was kind of right..
Me: Oh....

And so he told me he liked me and I was shocked. I didn't expect that at all. And then he said, "I wonder what your feelings are towards me" and I went blank. I didn't want to tell him at all that I liked him too. I didn't want to give in to it. I didn't want to get hurt and start all over again. It was devastating. But he really wanted to know if I liked him or not, and I said yes. And then we had this really intense conversation. I felt like crying haha it was so... shocking.

Him: I promised myself I wouldn't be with anyone before marriage
Me: And I promised myself I wouldn't like anyone anymore
Him: So, you don't like me?
Me: I already broke my promise..
Him: I'm about to break mine....

And then I freaked out as fuck! I was really shocked. I couldn't stop writing "ohh wow", it was making me crazy. But it was also thrilling to me. I couldn't stop smiling. And then I told him that I hate getting hurt and I'm a very complicated person. He said he hates hurting people that he loves and he'll try to be with me. And then I said I don't know. He replied with, "Be mine" and then I said that I'm not sure and all.

Then, he started to regret confessing to me. He said he wished he didn't and blablabla and then I convinced him that it wasn't wrong. And then poof! I said yes. He said he was extremely happy and he couldn't believe it. It was also like a miracle to me. We chat on whatsapp for hours and hours until it was already 2am. And then on the next day, I woke up saying, "Oh my god.." and then said good morning to him. He was really happy about that.

He was perfect. Everything about him was just pure perfection. He's good-looking, he's very muscular because he often goes to the gym, he just learned how to play the guitar, he's a skateboarder (which kind of turns me on lol), he LIKES Twilight (omg when I knew this, I freaked out!), he's a very nice guy, he's reaaaaally sweet (He made me melt a lot like omfg I felt like fainting) and much much more.

He told me he was very happy and he couldn't believe that we're together. And then he wrote my name as "Beauty" and asked me to write his name as "Beast" which is really sweet to me. So, yeah. There it goes. Okaybye.


xxx

A New Chapter -2013-

2013.
Wow, so close to another year. Another chapter of our so-called, life. It's been 11 months and 8 days already. Another 3 weeks and 2 days until another year starts. A whole new year.

Well, 2012 was okay, I suppose. It was dull, it was fun and you know, just that. It's been like that every year. So, nothing new, I guess. But there is this one thing though, next year I have a really big exam. I have to study more and reduce using my phone and social networks and stuff like that. I want to go to tuition and start early but none of my friends are going to tuition plus next year, I'm moving to another place.

Oh yes, my new life at a new school, new home and new place with different people and different neighborhood. Yes, I'm moving, again. I guess I could say that I like the new place I'm gonna move to. Because the school is better compared to my current school and also I get to have my own room and stuff so yeah. I'm quite excited about that. But, I'm afraid of going to that school and being left-out and being the stranger that's lost or something. It's terrifying. I hate that.

Other than that, I'm pretty excited to go through another year with my new home and all. I get to meet new people and maybe get some new friends along the way. But I'll never forget my bestfriends here, of course.

I really hope that I'll work harder this time and get straight A's. I want to get 8As for the big exam I'm gonna have next year. Amiiin!

xxx

Los Angeles, Chicago and Las Vegas

Hey there! As most of you would probably know, I went to the US of A for the school holidays. It was fun, of course. I loved it there. The people are all so nice and polite. I was surprised because I was so used to the people here, at Malaysia. They're very different compared to here. I wish I could stay there forever :-( Oh well....

Los Angeles

On the first day, I went to LA and stayed at a hotel called, Anabella Hotel. The hotel is a 10 minute walk away from Disneyland. Yeah, pretty close but you'd still feel tired if you walked all the way but yeah it'll be worth it. I arrived there at nighttime so my parents and I rested for the day. I watched the television and found out that Breaking Dawn was premiered at LA too. I was so shocked that I screamed haha and I wanted my parents to bring me there but they didn't want to. Yeah, sad me is sad. Later on, we walked at the street and had dinner at a diner. The diner was so cool and I loved their pies!

On the next day, we went to Disneyland. My parents and I rode some rides and stuff. It was fun but it would be more fun if I had a friend to accompany me because my mom is afraid of most of the fun rides and I feel sorry for my dad because he had to ride all the rides for me. 

We went there at 10am, had lunch inside and got back to the hotel at 9pm.

On the next day, we went to Disneyland again but at a different park. The California Adventures, they call it. But on that day, we went back to the hotel a little bit early because my parents were tired. See? :-( Hmm. But I had fun anyway so I feel happy for that, yes.

Saint Louis, Chicago

After staying at LA for three days, I went to St. Louis. I visited my aunt & uncle and their children, Shawn, Samantha and Saria. They took us to a lot of interesting places and we went to a lot of outlet malls and retail shops. We also went to stay at the Lake of Ozark plus we went to the Botanical Garden and looked at a lot of beautiful flowers but most of them are already dead but yeah it was still fun, haha. We also went to go and watch Saria play soccer and I met some of her friends there too. I met Shelby and Millie. All of them were so pretty! I felt so freaking insecure.

 I stayed at their house for 1 week plus a few days. It was fun spending time with them. My aunt and uncle bought a lot of cookies for me so I felt like heaven at that time hehe. And, they celebrated thanksgiving with their relatives so my parents and I just ate the turkey and pies and some other very very VERY delicious food haha ok now I'm craving for all of it. And then, Saria, Samantha, their cousin and I played some games. I met a lot of their relatives that day. I was really shy so I didn't say anything and I just ate all the food hahaha.

At the Lake of Ozark, there is an outlet mall with a lot of branded stores but they're now out-of-style so the price are all very cheap! But to us, we don't care because it's cheap so we just buy it. I bought 3 long-sleeve shirts at Nike, a pair of pink with purple base jogging shoes and a sports bra at Adidas, 2 slim colored jeans and 3 Breaking Dawn t-shirts (Yes, I screamed at the store when I found it) at RUE21, and an Adventure Time t-shirt and a pair of jeans at a store which I forgot what it's called. Yup, I went crazy at that time.

 On the 18th of Nov, we were all at the outlet mall. We watched Breaking Dawn (Part 2) there. It was awesome, yes.

Las Vegas

We all stayed at Vegas for a few days. We stayed at a hotel called, Stratosphere. It's a very tall hotel. It kind of looks like the KL Tower. So, on the first day, my parents and I went to watch The Donny and Marie show. They were really famous when they were young. My mom loves them a lot haha. After that, my aunt, my uncle and Saria just arrived Vegas. We all walked on the strip. It was a very long walk but gosh, it was really worth it! The whole strip was so pretty with all the different type of shapes and colors of the buildings and all. I took a photo with The Joker, Elmo, Spongebob and Bumblebee. Of course, you have to pay them. And then we all went back to the hotel.

The next day, we had our breakfast at IHOP. Which stands for International House Of Pancakes. Seriously, I felt like heaven with all the pancakes on the menu! Gosh haha okay I'm sound so hungry now. So anyway, and then we walked to some places and stuff. At night, we went to a circus called, Circus Circus. (Obvious ey? lol) We had a lot of fun at the circus! We played some games and I won 2 prizes, a penguin and a puppy plushie! And then Saria and I played Guitar Hero at the arcade.

Los Angeles (again)

After staying at Vegas for a few days, my parents and I went back to LA while my aunt, uncle and Saria went back to their home at St. Louis. My parents and I took a grand tour of Downtown LA, Hollywood, the Venice beach and some other places. It was okay, I guess. My favorite was going to Hollywood because I got to see the Hollywood sign and also I got to see Kristen Stewart, Robert Pattinson and Taylor Lautner's hand and feet prints!

After two days of staying at LA, my parents and I went to the airport and back home. It was sad to leave. I didn't want to leave at all. We stayed there for 3 weeks so I kinda felt used to staying there already. I wish I could stay there forever. And the fact that Kristen and Robert was always there also made me frustrated haha so anyway, that's all. Bye.

One day, I'm gonna stay there. Either with my bestfriend, Tasnim or a guy that I really love. Yes, I will stay there. No matter what happens, it'll happen for sure.

With love, Madihah.

Twilight: Breaking Dawn (Part II)

My obsession, yes.
I've loved Twilight since day one. I bought the books and read all of them. I even bought 3 t-shirts of it when I went to Chicago last week. Yeah haha I went there. I'll update later. So anyway, on the same day I bought the t-shirts, I watched the Breaking Dawn - Part 2 movie. Yeah, the last movie. (I hope not) Yes of course, it was awesome. The twist at the end was very shocking and I was so speechless because I didn't expect it to happen at all. I don't want to be a spoiler so yeah I'll just keep quiet, haha.

I totally recommend you guys to watch it! I mean like, on the first day it premiered, it sold out! It's crazy. Oh and I don't care that you're a hater or you dislike it or wtvr but seriously you should really watch it. You'd be surprised too. But if you're a complainer-which I know you are-then don't waste your time. But if you're interested, you should watch it. Don't be a complainer, okay? :)

And another crazy thing is that when the movie premiered at Los Angeles, I was at LA too. Yeah, I screamed when I found out. But it was already too late because my parents were tired and they were too lazy to bring me there. I was very sad, of course.

I watched the movie with my parents, my aunt and my cousin. We all liked it. But the ending was sad, though. Really sad. And also sad because it's the very last one. I really wish that they'd make another one but I doubt that that'll happen. Almost impossible, I guess. So yeah, I love Twilight. Nothing can make me change my mind.

Don't forget to watch the movie! Oh and don't forget to bring me too hehe

xxx

With love, Madihah.
 (A Twihard)