Eiman and I have already broke up. Just after two days of being together. Surprising huh? Yup, sure is. I was really sad, but I didn't cry. I wanted to, but I just didn't do it.
He was the one who wanted to break up. He said he wants a "timeout", what ever that means. He said he wasn't ready for all this things. But he also said he still loves me, which made me so freaking confused. And we haven't talked to each other at all. I miss him. I miss talking to him. I miss being crazy and annoying at him because he doesn't really care. I lost a friend. A really good friend.
I guess, it just wasn't meant to be. It's not something I can fix, probably. I wish we could be friends again though. I want to talk to him again. I want to meet him at Pavilion and force him to buy me cookies. Yes, I just want to be friends with him again, nothing else. I miss my friend.
I really regretted accepting him. I didn't know that we won't last long. I wish I didn't say "yes" to him. I'm so stupid.
x
January 4, 2013
Deaths and such
"Just because you're having a bad day, doesn't mean you have a bad life"
Sometimes, it's not just a bad "day", sometimes it can be weeks or months or at least once a week people have bad days. And those bad days are not necessarily just "bad", sometimes it's worst than that. And that's when people think of suicide. People like me, yes. We can't help it. We can't just throw the feeling away. I, for one, have always thought about it. I've never gotten close to it like cutting my wrists or attempted jumping of a building. But I have thought about it.
The feeling never really goes away. It sticks. Once you've thought about it once, you'll think about loads of times when you're having those bad days. I've gone through those dark moments when I cried so terribly until I couldn't stop myself. It was depressing. I really felt like I'd rather die than live another minute of that day... but I never really tried to kill myself.
Committing suicide is not good. And it's also a big sin, considering that I'm muslim. Even if it wasn't a sin, I probably wouldn't even try to do it. I don't know, I guess I'm more scared of death. And yeah, that's a good thing. It's like a really big wall that's protecting me. But it doesn't stop me from wanting to die so badly. For instance, when I'm crossing the street, and a car suddenly went straight to me, I'm not really sure if I would want to move away from it.
Sometimes, whenever my mom is screaming at me, I wished that I would pass out at that second and go into a coma or something. And sometimes I think that I'd rather be hurt physically than mentally. Because bruises will heal, that's what medicines are made for. But there's no medicine for a scarred heart.
I've thought of taking counseling classes so that I don't turn into a bad person. But then again, I wouldn't want anybody to know about my life and how I see it through my eyes. No one really knows nor understands. Like the time when I cried in front of my mom because she screamed too many times at me until I couldn't take it anymore. My eyes got watery and then tears came streaming down my face. A lot. I didn't like it. I didn't want her to see, for some reason. But yeah, she still screamed at me even though I was really hurt at that time. And that made me even more sad.
But that's just me. I don't know about anyone else but yeah, that's me. I admit, I always think about suicide. It's just something I can't stop from thinking about. Don't be like me, it's not a good thing. You have to always be positive and pray a lot. Again, SUICIDE IS NOT THE ANSWER.
Sometimes, it's not just a bad "day", sometimes it can be weeks or months or at least once a week people have bad days. And those bad days are not necessarily just "bad", sometimes it's worst than that. And that's when people think of suicide. People like me, yes. We can't help it. We can't just throw the feeling away. I, for one, have always thought about it. I've never gotten close to it like cutting my wrists or attempted jumping of a building. But I have thought about it.
The feeling never really goes away. It sticks. Once you've thought about it once, you'll think about loads of times when you're having those bad days. I've gone through those dark moments when I cried so terribly until I couldn't stop myself. It was depressing. I really felt like I'd rather die than live another minute of that day... but I never really tried to kill myself.
Committing suicide is not good. And it's also a big sin, considering that I'm muslim. Even if it wasn't a sin, I probably wouldn't even try to do it. I don't know, I guess I'm more scared of death. And yeah, that's a good thing. It's like a really big wall that's protecting me. But it doesn't stop me from wanting to die so badly. For instance, when I'm crossing the street, and a car suddenly went straight to me, I'm not really sure if I would want to move away from it.
Sometimes, whenever my mom is screaming at me, I wished that I would pass out at that second and go into a coma or something. And sometimes I think that I'd rather be hurt physically than mentally. Because bruises will heal, that's what medicines are made for. But there's no medicine for a scarred heart.
I've thought of taking counseling classes so that I don't turn into a bad person. But then again, I wouldn't want anybody to know about my life and how I see it through my eyes. No one really knows nor understands. Like the time when I cried in front of my mom because she screamed too many times at me until I couldn't take it anymore. My eyes got watery and then tears came streaming down my face. A lot. I didn't like it. I didn't want her to see, for some reason. But yeah, she still screamed at me even though I was really hurt at that time. And that made me even more sad.
But that's just me. I don't know about anyone else but yeah, that's me. I admit, I always think about suicide. It's just something I can't stop from thinking about. Don't be like me, it's not a good thing. You have to always be positive and pray a lot. Again, SUICIDE IS NOT THE ANSWER.
MMF.
January 1, 2013
Page 1 of 365, chapter 2013.
It's that time of the year again. Yes, New Years! Another year for us to go through all over again. Getting older, too. Life doesn't get any easier, full of challenges along the way. 2012 was full of ups and downs, tears and laughter, frowns and smiles and much more.
But of course, I do miss it. I miss the memories I had with my friends and family. I miss the time when I had fun and laughed till I fell down from my chair. Now, it's kind of impossible for me to "have fun" because I'm having a very big test on October, this year. I have to study a lot, more things to remember, plus I need a lot of time to study! It just makes it all seem so very boring. And also the fact that I went down 1 class because I failed my history test.
My mom got mad, of course. Puteri went up 1 class and my other friends stayed in the same class so my mom kept on asking, "Don't you feel embarrassed?". Well of course I do! Gosh, 2013 just started and I already feel depressed and frustrated. But I'm glad that I'm improving, bit by bit. I've started studying because I'm terrified.
And also, I'm that forever alone girl who sits by herself, silent and says nothing at class. I know all my classmates but they don't really care much to even get close to me. Yes, some of them do sometimes say "hi" or "Have you finished yesterday's homework?" but yeah, just that. Nothing else. I felt so lonely and whenever I needed help to do something, I have no one to turn to. It's very saddening.
So, I guess that's also for today. Haha. Oh and, HAPPY NEW YEARS! May you all be blessed and have a wonderful year. Let's make the best of it.
But of course, I do miss it. I miss the memories I had with my friends and family. I miss the time when I had fun and laughed till I fell down from my chair. Now, it's kind of impossible for me to "have fun" because I'm having a very big test on October, this year. I have to study a lot, more things to remember, plus I need a lot of time to study! It just makes it all seem so very boring. And also the fact that I went down 1 class because I failed my history test.
My mom got mad, of course. Puteri went up 1 class and my other friends stayed in the same class so my mom kept on asking, "Don't you feel embarrassed?". Well of course I do! Gosh, 2013 just started and I already feel depressed and frustrated. But I'm glad that I'm improving, bit by bit. I've started studying because I'm terrified.
And also, I'm that forever alone girl who sits by herself, silent and says nothing at class. I know all my classmates but they don't really care much to even get close to me. Yes, some of them do sometimes say "hi" or "Have you finished yesterday's homework?" but yeah, just that. Nothing else. I felt so lonely and whenever I needed help to do something, I have no one to turn to. It's very saddening.
So, I guess that's also for today. Haha. Oh and, HAPPY NEW YEARS! May you all be blessed and have a wonderful year. Let's make the best of it.
MMF.
December 25, 2012
Dreams
I had the greatest dream last night!
It started of like this, I went to Las Vegas with some of my friends. We went to a convention centre. It was about plants, wood and stuff. We went to the theater to watch some of the people there talk about how wood were made. And, one of the spokeperson who is a girl, made a 16 year old boy and girl out of wood. They were really life-like and they really looked like humans. The girl joined the other group while the boy joined my group with some of my friends. I forgot his named but it started with an 'M'. He was really handsome and very kind.
After the presentation was finished, M, my friends and I went to some places. We rode a van and visited a lot of interesting places. M and I was really close, we were like a couple! We kept on holding hands and followed each other everywhere. It was amazing. *sigh* ...so anyway, we went to malls and stuff and stayed together for 1 whole week. We talked to each other and connected a lot. And I think there was a part when my friends, M and I had to run from someone. Haha, that was fun. After we ran, we walked to somewhere while M and I held hands.
All of us went to another convention centre and learned more about woods and stuff. We sat in the theater room again on one row. A few girls behind us kept on saying that M is ugly and whatnot, and I scolded them until the presentation started. So after that, we went to another mall. Suddenly, M said, "I'm gonna die tomorrow..." and I felt kind of sad. He said that his creator forgot to put something on him so that he'll live longer. But I expected it to happen anyway since he was made completely out of wood. I didn't cry, though. I just felt sad. I told a friend of mine about it and she also felt sad.
I held his hand and said that I'll be okay. So he took my hand and we walked together the whole mall. After that, we rode the van until it was already nighttime. We stopped at a mosque to pray. My friends and I got in and there were a lot of people in there. And then I realized that I can't pray. So I got out, and searched for the van but I couldn't find it.
And then, I had to ride one of my teacher's car. He helped me to find the van. But we couldn't find it anywhere so he dropped me off at the street. Suddenly, it was already daytime. There were a lot of people there, celebrating something. So, I walked pass everyone and searched for the van. There were too many cars so I had to look slowly.
I still couldn't find the van. And then, I woke up... to the sound of my niece crying.
It was kind of upsetting since I didn't get to see M before he died. I didn't want the dream to end at all. I wanted to know the ending. The real one. But, I guess, the ending is that I just didn't get to see him. So, yeah. That's it, I guess. I do miss him, though. The guy in my dreams. Yeah, I miss him. A lot.
xxx
It started of like this, I went to Las Vegas with some of my friends. We went to a convention centre. It was about plants, wood and stuff. We went to the theater to watch some of the people there talk about how wood were made. And, one of the spokeperson who is a girl, made a 16 year old boy and girl out of wood. They were really life-like and they really looked like humans. The girl joined the other group while the boy joined my group with some of my friends. I forgot his named but it started with an 'M'. He was really handsome and very kind.
After the presentation was finished, M, my friends and I went to some places. We rode a van and visited a lot of interesting places. M and I was really close, we were like a couple! We kept on holding hands and followed each other everywhere. It was amazing. *sigh* ...so anyway, we went to malls and stuff and stayed together for 1 whole week. We talked to each other and connected a lot. And I think there was a part when my friends, M and I had to run from someone. Haha, that was fun. After we ran, we walked to somewhere while M and I held hands.
All of us went to another convention centre and learned more about woods and stuff. We sat in the theater room again on one row. A few girls behind us kept on saying that M is ugly and whatnot, and I scolded them until the presentation started. So after that, we went to another mall. Suddenly, M said, "I'm gonna die tomorrow..." and I felt kind of sad. He said that his creator forgot to put something on him so that he'll live longer. But I expected it to happen anyway since he was made completely out of wood. I didn't cry, though. I just felt sad. I told a friend of mine about it and she also felt sad.
I held his hand and said that I'll be okay. So he took my hand and we walked together the whole mall. After that, we rode the van until it was already nighttime. We stopped at a mosque to pray. My friends and I got in and there were a lot of people in there. And then I realized that I can't pray. So I got out, and searched for the van but I couldn't find it.
And then, I had to ride one of my teacher's car. He helped me to find the van. But we couldn't find it anywhere so he dropped me off at the street. Suddenly, it was already daytime. There were a lot of people there, celebrating something. So, I walked pass everyone and searched for the van. There were too many cars so I had to look slowly.
I still couldn't find the van. And then, I woke up... to the sound of my niece crying.
It was kind of upsetting since I didn't get to see M before he died. I didn't want the dream to end at all. I wanted to know the ending. The real one. But, I guess, the ending is that I just didn't get to see him. So, yeah. That's it, I guess. I do miss him, though. The guy in my dreams. Yeah, I miss him. A lot.
xxx
December 18, 2012
14.12.12
Muhammad Amirul Eiman bin Azmi.
He's 15 years old and he is the guy who stole my heart. It started of when I was at the US of A. He's bestfriends with Andzar and the other kolo dudes. We started to talk on Twitter. Something happened so he mention-ed me. We talked and stuff and then he followed me, so I followed him back.
After a few days, I wrote on twitter saying I want to go and watch Breaking Dawn part 2 again but someone needs to accompany me. And he said he wants to do it. So he asked for my number, and I gave it to him. The next day, we started whatsapp-ing each other and stuff. But we fight a lot hahaha. And then after a few days of talking everyday, without me realizing, I was starting to fall for him. I'd get excited whenever he says a single "hi" to me and I would look forward to him whatsapp-ing me. But I didn't want to get my hopes too high so I tried to avoid it. I didn't want to get hurt again so I just acted as if like he was just a friend to me.
And then he told me that I was the only person to talk to him a lot. That made me happy a bit. Hehe.
And then, on the 14th of December, his cousin took his phone and told me that Eiman likes me. I didn't want to believe it so I just said things like I don't believe him and all that. After that, Eiman took his phone again. And this happened :-
Him: Why did you talk to him? :-(
Me: Haha, I was bored.
Him: I hate you
Me: I hate you too!
Him: But I can't hate you
Me: Oh, why?
Him: Because what my cousin said was kind of right..
Me: Oh....
And so he told me he liked me and I was shocked. I didn't expect that at all. And then he said, "I wonder what your feelings are towards me" and I went blank. I didn't want to tell him at all that I liked him too. I didn't want to give in to it. I didn't want to get hurt and start all over again. It was devastating. But he really wanted to know if I liked him or not, and I said yes. And then we had this really intense conversation. I felt like crying haha it was so... shocking.
Him: I promised myself I wouldn't be with anyone before marriage
Me: And I promised myself I wouldn't like anyone anymore
Him: So, you don't like me?
Me: I already broke my promise..
Him: I'm about to break mine....
And then I freaked out as fuck! I was really shocked. I couldn't stop writing "ohh wow", it was making me crazy. But it was also thrilling to me. I couldn't stop smiling. And then I told him that I hate getting hurt and I'm a very complicated person. He said he hates hurting people that he loves and he'll try to be with me. And then I said I don't know. He replied with, "Be mine" and then I said that I'm not sure and all.
Then, he started to regret confessing to me. He said he wished he didn't and blablabla and then I convinced him that it wasn't wrong. And then poof! I said yes. He said he was extremely happy and he couldn't believe it. It was also like a miracle to me. We chat on whatsapp for hours and hours until it was already 2am. And then on the next day, I woke up saying, "Oh my god.." and then said good morning to him. He was really happy about that.
He was perfect. Everything about him was just pure perfection. He's good-looking, he's very muscular because he often goes to the gym, he just learned how to play the guitar, he's a skateboarder (which kind of turns me on lol), he LIKES Twilight (omg when I knew this, I freaked out!), he's a very nice guy, he's reaaaaally sweet (He made me melt a lot like omfg I felt like fainting) and much much more.
He told me he was very happy and he couldn't believe that we're together. And then he wrote my name as "Beauty" and asked me to write his name as "Beast" which is really sweet to me. So, yeah. There it goes. Okaybye.
xxx
He's 15 years old and he is the guy who stole my heart. It started of when I was at the US of A. He's bestfriends with Andzar and the other kolo dudes. We started to talk on Twitter. Something happened so he mention-ed me. We talked and stuff and then he followed me, so I followed him back.
After a few days, I wrote on twitter saying I want to go and watch Breaking Dawn part 2 again but someone needs to accompany me. And he said he wants to do it. So he asked for my number, and I gave it to him. The next day, we started whatsapp-ing each other and stuff. But we fight a lot hahaha. And then after a few days of talking everyday, without me realizing, I was starting to fall for him. I'd get excited whenever he says a single "hi" to me and I would look forward to him whatsapp-ing me. But I didn't want to get my hopes too high so I tried to avoid it. I didn't want to get hurt again so I just acted as if like he was just a friend to me.
And then he told me that I was the only person to talk to him a lot. That made me happy a bit. Hehe.
And then, on the 14th of December, his cousin took his phone and told me that Eiman likes me. I didn't want to believe it so I just said things like I don't believe him and all that. After that, Eiman took his phone again. And this happened :-
Him: Why did you talk to him? :-(
Me: Haha, I was bored.
Him: I hate you
Me: I hate you too!
Him: But I can't hate you
Me: Oh, why?
Him: Because what my cousin said was kind of right..
Me: Oh....
And so he told me he liked me and I was shocked. I didn't expect that at all. And then he said, "I wonder what your feelings are towards me" and I went blank. I didn't want to tell him at all that I liked him too. I didn't want to give in to it. I didn't want to get hurt and start all over again. It was devastating. But he really wanted to know if I liked him or not, and I said yes. And then we had this really intense conversation. I felt like crying haha it was so... shocking.
Him: I promised myself I wouldn't be with anyone before marriage
Me: And I promised myself I wouldn't like anyone anymore
Him: So, you don't like me?
Me: I already broke my promise..
Him: I'm about to break mine....
And then I freaked out as fuck! I was really shocked. I couldn't stop writing "ohh wow", it was making me crazy. But it was also thrilling to me. I couldn't stop smiling. And then I told him that I hate getting hurt and I'm a very complicated person. He said he hates hurting people that he loves and he'll try to be with me. And then I said I don't know. He replied with, "Be mine" and then I said that I'm not sure and all.
Then, he started to regret confessing to me. He said he wished he didn't and blablabla and then I convinced him that it wasn't wrong. And then poof! I said yes. He said he was extremely happy and he couldn't believe it. It was also like a miracle to me. We chat on whatsapp for hours and hours until it was already 2am. And then on the next day, I woke up saying, "Oh my god.." and then said good morning to him. He was really happy about that.
He was perfect. Everything about him was just pure perfection. He's good-looking, he's very muscular because he often goes to the gym, he just learned how to play the guitar, he's a skateboarder (which kind of turns me on lol), he LIKES Twilight (omg when I knew this, I freaked out!), he's a very nice guy, he's reaaaaally sweet (He made me melt a lot like omfg I felt like fainting) and much much more.
He told me he was very happy and he couldn't believe that we're together. And then he wrote my name as "Beauty" and asked me to write his name as "Beast" which is really sweet to me. So, yeah. There it goes. Okaybye.
xxx
December 8, 2012
A New Chapter -2013-
2013.
Wow, so close to another year. Another chapter of our so-called, life. It's been 11 months and 8 days already. Another 3 weeks and 2 days until another year starts. A whole new year.
Well, 2012 was okay, I suppose. It was dull, it was fun and you know, just that. It's been like that every year. So, nothing new, I guess. But there is this one thing though, next year I have a really big exam. I have to study more and reduce using my phone and social networks and stuff like that. I want to go to tuition and start early but none of my friends are going to tuition plus next year, I'm moving to another place.
Oh yes, my new life at a new school, new home and new place with different people and different neighborhood. Yes, I'm moving, again. I guess I could say that I like the new place I'm gonna move to. Because the school is better compared to my current school and also I get to have my own room and stuff so yeah. I'm quite excited about that. But, I'm afraid of going to that school and being left-out and being the stranger that's lost or something. It's terrifying. I hate that.
Other than that, I'm pretty excited to go through another year with my new home and all. I get to meet new people and maybe get some new friends along the way. But I'll never forget my bestfriends here, of course.
I really hope that I'll work harder this time and get straight A's. I want to get 8As for the big exam I'm gonna have next year. Amiiin!
xxx
Wow, so close to another year. Another chapter of our so-called, life. It's been 11 months and 8 days already. Another 3 weeks and 2 days until another year starts. A whole new year.
Well, 2012 was okay, I suppose. It was dull, it was fun and you know, just that. It's been like that every year. So, nothing new, I guess. But there is this one thing though, next year I have a really big exam. I have to study more and reduce using my phone and social networks and stuff like that. I want to go to tuition and start early but none of my friends are going to tuition plus next year, I'm moving to another place.
Oh yes, my new life at a new school, new home and new place with different people and different neighborhood. Yes, I'm moving, again. I guess I could say that I like the new place I'm gonna move to. Because the school is better compared to my current school and also I get to have my own room and stuff so yeah. I'm quite excited about that. But, I'm afraid of going to that school and being left-out and being the stranger that's lost or something. It's terrifying. I hate that.
Other than that, I'm pretty excited to go through another year with my new home and all. I get to meet new people and maybe get some new friends along the way. But I'll never forget my bestfriends here, of course.
I really hope that I'll work harder this time and get straight A's. I want to get 8As for the big exam I'm gonna have next year. Amiiin!
xxx
December 5, 2012
Los Angeles, Chicago and Las Vegas
Hey there! As most of you would probably know, I went to the US of A for the school holidays. It was fun, of course. I loved it there. The people are all so nice and polite. I was surprised because I was so used to the people here, at Malaysia. They're very different compared to here. I wish I could stay there forever :-( Oh well....
Los Angeles
On the first day, I went to LA and stayed at a hotel called, Anabella Hotel. The hotel is a 10 minute walk away from Disneyland. Yeah, pretty close but you'd still feel tired if you walked all the way but yeah it'll be worth it. I arrived there at nighttime so my parents and I rested for the day. I watched the television and found out that Breaking Dawn was premiered at LA too. I was so shocked that I screamed haha and I wanted my parents to bring me there but they didn't want to. Yeah, sad me is sad. Later on, we walked at the street and had dinner at a diner. The diner was so cool and I loved their pies!
On the next day, we went to Disneyland. My parents and I rode some rides and stuff. It was fun but it would be more fun if I had a friend to accompany me because my mom is afraid of most of the fun rides and I feel sorry for my dad because he had to ride all the rides for me.
We went there at 10am, had lunch inside and got back to the hotel at 9pm.
On the next day, we went to Disneyland again but at a different park. The California Adventures, they call it. But on that day, we went back to the hotel a little bit early because my parents were tired. See? :-( Hmm. But I had fun anyway so I feel happy for that, yes.
Saint Louis, Chicago
After staying at LA for three days, I went to St. Louis. I visited my aunt & uncle and their children, Shawn, Samantha and Saria. They took us to a lot of interesting places and we went to a lot of outlet malls and retail shops. We also went to stay at the Lake of Ozark plus we went to the Botanical Garden and looked at a lot of beautiful flowers but most of them are already dead but yeah it was still fun, haha. We also went to go and watch Saria play soccer and I met some of her friends there too. I met Shelby and Millie. All of them were so pretty! I felt so freaking insecure.
I stayed at their house for 1 week plus a few days. It was fun spending time with them. My aunt and uncle bought a lot of cookies for me so I felt like heaven at that time hehe. And, they celebrated thanksgiving with their relatives so my parents and I just ate the turkey and pies and some other very very VERY delicious food haha ok now I'm craving for all of it. And then, Saria, Samantha, their cousin and I played some games. I met a lot of their relatives that day. I was really shy so I didn't say anything and I just ate all the food hahaha.
At the Lake of Ozark, there is an outlet mall with a lot of branded stores but they're now out-of-style so the price are all very cheap! But to us, we don't care because it's cheap so we just buy it. I bought 3 long-sleeve shirts at Nike, a pair of pink with purple base jogging shoes and a sports bra at Adidas, 2 slim colored jeans and 3 Breaking Dawn t-shirts (Yes, I screamed at the store when I found it) at RUE21, and an Adventure Time t-shirt and a pair of jeans at a store which I forgot what it's called. Yup, I went crazy at that time.
On the 18th of Nov, we were all at the outlet mall. We watched Breaking Dawn (Part 2) there. It was awesome, yes.
Las Vegas
We all stayed at Vegas for a few days. We stayed at a hotel called, Stratosphere. It's a very tall hotel. It kind of looks like the KL Tower. So, on the first day, my parents and I went to watch The Donny and Marie show. They were really famous when they were young. My mom loves them a lot haha. After that, my aunt, my uncle and Saria just arrived Vegas. We all walked on the strip. It was a very long walk but gosh, it was really worth it! The whole strip was so pretty with all the different type of shapes and colors of the buildings and all. I took a photo with The Joker, Elmo, Spongebob and Bumblebee. Of course, you have to pay them. And then we all went back to the hotel.
The next day, we had our breakfast at IHOP. Which stands for International House Of Pancakes. Seriously, I felt like heaven with all the pancakes on the menu! Gosh haha okay I'm sound so hungry now. So anyway, and then we walked to some places and stuff. At night, we went to a circus called, Circus Circus. (Obvious ey? lol) We had a lot of fun at the circus! We played some games and I won 2 prizes, a penguin and a puppy plushie! And then Saria and I played Guitar Hero at the arcade.
Los Angeles (again)
After staying at Vegas for a few days, my parents and I went back to LA while my aunt, uncle and Saria went back to their home at St. Louis. My parents and I took a grand tour of Downtown LA, Hollywood, the Venice beach and some other places. It was okay, I guess. My favorite was going to Hollywood because I got to see the Hollywood sign and also I got to see Kristen Stewart, Robert Pattinson and Taylor Lautner's hand and feet prints!
After two days of staying at LA, my parents and I went to the airport and back home. It was sad to leave. I didn't want to leave at all. We stayed there for 3 weeks so I kinda felt used to staying there already. I wish I could stay there forever. And the fact that Kristen and Robert was always there also made me frustrated haha so anyway, that's all. Bye.
One day, I'm gonna stay there. Either with my bestfriend, Tasnim or a guy that I really love. Yes, I will stay there. No matter what happens, it'll happen for sure.
With love, Madihah.
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