Page 1 of 365, chapter 2013.

It's that time of the year again. Yes, New Years! Another year for us to go through all over again. Getting older, too. Life doesn't get any easier, full of challenges along the way. 2012 was full of ups and downs, tears and laughter, frowns and smiles and much more.

But of course, I do miss it. I miss the memories I had with my friends and family. I miss the time when I had fun and laughed till I fell down from my chair. Now, it's kind of impossible for me to "have fun" because I'm having a very big test on October, this year. I have to study a lot, more things to remember, plus I need a lot of time to study! It just makes it all seem so very boring. And also the fact that I went down 1 class because I failed my history test.

My mom got mad, of course. Puteri went up 1 class and my other friends stayed in the same class so my mom kept on asking, "Don't you feel embarrassed?". Well of course I do! Gosh, 2013 just started and I already feel depressed and frustrated. But I'm glad that I'm improving, bit by bit. I've started studying because I'm terrified.

And also, I'm that forever alone girl who sits by herself, silent and says nothing at class. I know all my classmates but they don't really care much to even get close to me. Yes, some of them do sometimes say "hi" or "Have you finished yesterday's homework?" but yeah, just that. Nothing else. I felt so lonely and whenever I needed help to do something, I have no one to turn to. It's very saddening.

So, I guess that's also for today. Haha. Oh and, HAPPY NEW YEARS! May you all be blessed and have a wonderful year. Let's make the best of it.

MMF.