Favorite Memories

Since I love to keep good memories, I felt like making a post about those things so that one day when I'm older, I would come back to this whenever bad things happen and I know this would make me feel happy again.

Cartoons/TV Shows:

• Adventure Time
• Regular Show
• Chowder
• The Amazing World Of Gumball
• How I Met Your Mother
• Teen Titans

Animes/Mangas:

• Fruits Basket
• Kaichou Wa Maid-sama!
• Ouran High School Host Club
• Special A
• Bloody Kiss
• Fruits Basket Another
• Momoiro Heaven!
• Haru Matsu Bokura

Movies/Books:

• The Twilight Saga
• The Hunger Games Series
• The Maze Runner Series
• The Divergent Series
• Tron: Legacy
• Interstellar
• Cloud Atlas

Things To Do When Bored:

• Start drawing again
• Start painting again
• Start reading again
• Bake cookies (Because I love cookies, a lot)
• Watch Anime (Because Animes are hilarious)
• Read manga (Yes, hilarious)
• Clean my room lol
• Play Habbo, Gaiaonline, Migoland (If it comes back)
• Focus on Instashop business
• Delete unwanted photos on laptop
• Actually sell/give away old clothes
• GO OUT WITH FRIENDS
• Sleep
• Organize wardrobe
• Improve drawing skills (hehe)
• Look at ship photos of fav anime and cry because they're not real (torture)
• Open tumblr, cry
• Delete unwanted photos on Facebook
• Laugh at people on the timeline on Twitter
• Think about the future, cry
• Think about the past, cry
• Play games
• Play The Sims 3/4, SPORE, Yandere Simulator, Life Is Strange
• bye

Memories

I, for one, love to hold on to memories as stated in one of my previous post. It hurts a lot though, because nothing lasts forever. But, that never stopped me from keeping pieces of paper that has people's writings in them, photos of people who I do not talk to anymore, old school's empty exercise books that I know I'll never use, and much much more.

It's kind of depressing, really. Sometimes I would try to remember all those good memories behind the useless stuff I still keep, and it saddens me because it will never happen again. And then, I would mentally put it all away, in a tightly-closed-lid container, and forget about it, over and over. Whenever I feel like it, I would just do it again. I would open the container, smile at the memories, and close it back.

I think it's just a small thing to other people. But it's almost everything to me. Because without it, everything would be meaningless. I live for the good memories, bad ones.. Well, I'm not exactly fond of. But, that's just a part of life, when you want the good things, you have to also take the bad.

Maybe if people appreciated life more, things wouldn't seem so bad after all

Anime/Manga!!

Anime/Manga is incredibly underrated and it saddens me so very much. I'm scared that it might one day be forgotten and slowly disappear, forever. That probably won't happen but, still. It's possible since kids nowadays are much too advanced or just don't know what the hell anime/manga is.

I'm glad for being born just at the right time. And also for my grandmother to be having a very kind maid that likes to recommend me amazing Animes that she always watch on TV. I'm absolutely thankful for that. If not, I wouldn't know how cool the Anime world is. (Like some people are now)

Anime/Manga is cool but people are too ignorant or too egoistic to watch it. I've fallen in love with it so many times and really, it has made myself become the person I am now. The characters are all so lively, hilarious, exaggerating but fun and many more. No offence, but, I'd rather watch Animes or read mangas rather than watch all those typical love dramas on TV at my country right now. It's all so cliche and weird. So disappointed, really.

I love Fruits Basket, Kaichou Wa Maid-sama!, Ouran High School Host Club and Fruits Basket Another. I like Naruto, Fairy Tail, Special A and Tokyo Ghoul too but not to the point where I'll obsess over them. I'm most obsessed about Fruits Basket though. Whenever I watch the Anime or read the manga, it just makes me happy and then when I finally finish watching/reading them, I'll get this empty feeling in my heart like I don't know what to do anymore after that. I know, it's ridiculous. But, yeah, it has affected my life so much. A little too much, I think haha.

The Boy In The Gold Vest

I went to The Curve today at Damansara. And, as usual, my parents would sit at a restaurant/cafe somewhere while I walk around, buy some things, or just.. walk.

And, as always, I would get cat-calls, random stranger guys saying "Hi" to me and many more. I'm used to it now because I know they do all those things just because I'm alone. It's always the same at other malls, even Pavilion. They did a big mistake in doing all those things to me because I'm shy and quiet so I would just smile or look down or ignore or act as if they don't exist or just feel embarrassed and look down while shaking my head. I'd facepalm though but that would be too over lol. Most of them are about my age or just a few years older so I didn't really care much. Believe me, I have a lot of guy friends and they all do the same thing. Ugh.

I don't know who all of them are and I'm pretty sure I only met them on that day and then never again after that. That's just how it is. Shopping Malls are the place where you walk by strangers you'll never see again after that.

Shame...

This blog is embarrassing. Well, I am embarrassing. Sigh..

But, nevertheless, it's already too late. I've already made a new blog so that this one would be private and the new one would be public and only contain my own personal opinions about general things (I guess..?) but looks like that's not happening, lol. So, I guess, I'm just going to stick to posting random things in this, once a year haha damn.

I know I'll look back and read all of this, laughing my ass off while hearing some old favourite songs, being nostalgic because I'm always like that. I tend to hold on to things that has to do with memories. I don't know why and it's pretty depressing but.. meh. That's just how it is.

Till next time x

Lol hi

Oh wow, it's been a loooong time since I've updated my blog. I'm sorry... I guess? Idk hahaha this feels so weird though. But, I'm so happy now. I really am. And no, it doesn't have anything to do with a guy. Well, you won't die if you go on months or years being single. People just really need to relax. Seriously. So anyway, I guess that's all for now. I'm going through my SPM examination right now so... BYE!

Gone

I have not been using my phone as much as I always did before this. Idk it's like I have no mood to talk to anyone and I'm at my hometown right now so I don't really want anything to ruin my mood especially if 'he' or whoever told me something about him that would make my heart break even more than it already is.

I'm just really sad. Sometimes I think people are intentionally taking him away from me, they're happy to see me sad. And that's just sad cause people would go so far to see me miserable. I can't even do anything about it.

I've been putting on a show, acting like I'm okay in front of everyone and telling them I'm fine when I'm far from fine. I miss being happy and I miss smiling or laughing. I still do those things but it's just that now, everytime after I'm done laughing, I would unintentionally remember back what happened and be sad again.

Sometimes I think positive things like I can finally focus on my studies and not worry about whether if I don't talk to him, would he go find someone else or not but now I don't have to care about that cause he already has someone else so I guess that just makes everything a little bit okay...? I don't know. Well, maybe we weren't meant to be together. I mean, we made a lot of great memories and we were so happy but now it's all just.. gone.