Sometimes, i wish i was a better person, so that i won't feel like i'm not good enough for anyone.

But i can't change that. I'm just not good enough for anyone. No one deserves me. No one.

I'm tired of people finding my mistakes and say a lot of bad things about me. Yes, i'm not perfect. I know that. But, you're not perfect either. No one is. Have you forgotten about that? It surely looks like you did. Well, now you know. But it's too late now. It's too late.

You know, the things 'perfect' people talk about other people. It's mean. It's rude. And not to mention, it makes you look ugly. Stop with that attitude. I know what i did wrong. But you thought you were right all the time. Stop that. It's... stupid.

I know that all of that is in the past now. I live in the present right now. But sometimes i stop and think to myself that i am never good enough. Because of you. You made everything worse. Miss perfect person. Hah. Funny.

Well, it's good that you've made a somewhat contract. But it'll never change how i feel towards you. You look ugly because your attitude is ugly. It's so ugly. No one can even think you're pretty if you treat people like that. You should know that. Since you're older than me, you should've known that since the past few months. But, i guess you were too caught up in the fight, that you forgot what you should've done, and what you shouldn't have did.

Well, saying i'm stupid won't make you smart. Saying i look like a hippopotamus' bottom won't make you any prettier. Saying i'm pathetic won't make you any less pathetic than i am. Saying i'm a 'control queen' won't make you be someone who had never controlled anyone before. And much-much more.

I hope you're happy. i hope you're satisfied with all of those mean words you wrote about me. I hope you're happy that i wanted to kill myself in front of you. Oh wait, that was a looooong time ago. Now, i want to live life to the fullest. So yeah, sorry to ruin your happiness :)

Now i want to stop here and just say thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. So much. Why? Because of you, i knew that there are guys out there like Hafiz. And, because of you, i know now that there are mean, rude, cruel and etc girls like YOU. Hoyeah, thank you a lot!

Chill dude, i'm not perli-ing you or whatever. I'm not mad anymore. I've moved on. That stupid fight, is nothing to me now. All of that, is in the past now. I can't do anything to change what happened that month. I can hate it, but i can't change it. That's life. I have to deal with it. And you have to deal with it too. As much as i hate it, i have to move on. And i have moved on. I'm relieved now. It's over. Everything is over. I just hope that things that happened that month won't happen again. Aminnn!

So yeah, have a wonderful year everyone! Live life to the fullest, it might surprise you ;) Make mistakes, and learn from them. That's life. Make sweet moments, and remember them forever. Assalamualaikum!

With love, Madihah.