Miss Lonely + Exam

Hi! Well today, had my first exam which was BM, History and Life Skills. All i did was okay. Went to school like normal. Had tons of fun though. x) Recess, of course, with Farisah and the others. We ate thisandthat. We talked thisandthat. We drank thisandthat. Sorry, not in the modd right now. No, it's not that time of the month. Well, i chatted with Abang Comel just now and i dunno? I think i turned his smile upsidedown. And as i realized that, i cried. Damn. x'( Seriously. I was the girl who made him smile but now, i'm the girl who made him frown. I'm upset. REALLY upset. I don't know what to do, i'm always in the dark. *Remember that line? (; Heheh. Well, i'm certainly not in the mood on smiling nor laughing. Crying would be the best, right? :) I think he knows i'm blaming myself right now because i wrote something in my status about 'my smile already gone'. I know i'm exaggerating. But this is what happens to a girl who's blaming herself completely! He doesn't know the url to my blog so he won't be reading this. Well, i regretted 'testing' him just now.


Yeahh, i think that's the reason why. When i told him that, he terus frowned! Well, he asked me would i care if someone had a 'thing' for him. I, proudly said, yes. And he said 'Oh' without asking why. So i, proudly asked him the same question. He said he wouldn't as long as i'm happy. And then he asked "hehehe , kenapa, you dah ada ke ?" And i answered maybe. Then, he said, "takpe , pegilaa ! tinggalkan i dalam kegelapan" And then i said, "You kisaaaah xD Cakap je tak :p lied x)" And then he said "Hahaha! MAYBE! :/" So i told him that i was testing him. And he put a frowning smiley. x( I said sorry a bunch of times and he said it wasn't my fault and he said to stop blaming myself and his mood was gone. And that's where i cried. :'/ I dunno? We were okay before but when i 'tested' him, it was all gone. ALL GONE. I was sad! SAD I TELL YOU! Oh wells. :/ He's offline right now and i still am blaming myself. Before this, he said He sayang me gilegile as an adik angkat. He always calls me 'Adek Comel' but after that moment there, he called me by my name like old times. I'm afraid that i'll be ignored and hurt. Again. I don't what that. And i never wanted that. Somebody, help? :'(


xoxo