I feel so free now. Why? Because I've just finished my final exam! It was quite okay. I was a bit stressed with it but I kept calm and hoped for the best. Truth be told, it was actually fun! Because everyone's like studying and all, being stressed out together and working together so that all of us doesn't fail haha
But there's this one really sad thing happened yesterday. The teacher gave the history paper to everyone and, you know what? I failed. Yeah, I failed my history test. By only two marks. I felt reaaaally sad. I felt like crying but I just acted normal. My friends passed the test but I failed. I am a failure. I don't know how am I going to tell my parents about it. So, yeah next year I'll go down one class because of one fail. Damn
Today, I got my science paper and I got 77! I felt relieved for that. Phew! Oh and mathematics paper was quite easy. That was the first time that I felt like that. I hope I'll get an A for it. Or even a B+ that'd be nice.
English was easy, Malay Language was okay. The others, well I don't know, okay I guess?
Now, I can go anywhere with my friends and all. Or so I thought.. But in reality, I'll just stay at home, being bored, watch tv, sleep, play the computer and yeah, just that. It's so boring and I want to go out but my friends are all busy and my cousins live a billion miles away so yeah, I'm gonna waste my holiday with being bored.
On the exam week, I'd have something to do. I'd have to study non-stop, making notes and all that. But now, I have nothing to do. I don't know what to do to make me occupied. It's. just. so. boring. And now I have nothing else to say so bye!
Madihah.
November 2, 2012
Speechless
To tell you the truth, the title has nothing to do with what I'm going to write here. It's titled speechless because I don't know what to name the title. Hahahaha k
So this is a story about a girl and a guy who-shall-not-be-named who goes to the same school. They knew each other from Twitter, but they didn't talk/mention and etc. until a few months after that. But the girl had a boyfriend at that time so she didn't want to get too close to other guys.
On one fine day, it was the month of August. The girl's relationship was going downhill and soon, she and her boyfriend broke up. She reconnected with the guy who-shall-not-be-named and they became close. The guy would always mention her on twitter and say hi or whatever.
The next day, the girl and her siblings went to bazaar Ramadhan to buy some food for breaking fast. They walked, walked and walked. The girl saw the guy at one of the stalls. The guy was selling Roti John with his other friends. They walked by the guy's stall. As they were walking, the guy said loudly, "Roti John! Roti John! __(girl's name)__, Roti John!". The girl was shy and scared because of her siblings so she just looked down and laughed a little. The guy just smiled at the girl, showing no shyness at all towards her siblings. The girl was relieved because her siblings acted cool.
At school, when the last bell rang, the girl and her friends went to the front of the school. The guy and his friends were there too. The guy came to her, really close and asked, "Where's my biscuits?" while smiling. The girl, being shy as ever, just mumbled and said things like, "*laugh* I don't have any haaaaa...." and then there was awkward silence where the girl and guy had nothing to say. So the guys just left her and went to his friends.
And so they were still pretty close for a few months. They whatsapp-ed each other and whatnot.
But then, all of the sudden, the guy didn't say "hi" to her at all. He instantly became a stranger to the girl. And the guy was okay with it. Showing no care or anything towards it. The girl wasn't really sad about it because the girl had expected it to happen.
The girl got used to being ignored and all so she just lived her life, without him. It's not a sad story but it just shows that even the person you're really close to, can even leave you in the end.
Like everyone else, he left the girl too.
And now, the girl has to deal with it, alone.
xoxo, Madihah.
So this is a story about a girl and a guy who-shall-not-be-named who goes to the same school. They knew each other from Twitter, but they didn't talk/mention and etc. until a few months after that. But the girl had a boyfriend at that time so she didn't want to get too close to other guys.
On one fine day, it was the month of August. The girl's relationship was going downhill and soon, she and her boyfriend broke up. She reconnected with the guy who-shall-not-be-named and they became close. The guy would always mention her on twitter and say hi or whatever.
The next day, the girl and her siblings went to bazaar Ramadhan to buy some food for breaking fast. They walked, walked and walked. The girl saw the guy at one of the stalls. The guy was selling Roti John with his other friends. They walked by the guy's stall. As they were walking, the guy said loudly, "Roti John! Roti John! __(girl's name)__, Roti John!". The girl was shy and scared because of her siblings so she just looked down and laughed a little. The guy just smiled at the girl, showing no shyness at all towards her siblings. The girl was relieved because her siblings acted cool.
At school, when the last bell rang, the girl and her friends went to the front of the school. The guy and his friends were there too. The guy came to her, really close and asked, "Where's my biscuits?" while smiling. The girl, being shy as ever, just mumbled and said things like, "*laugh* I don't have any haaaaa...." and then there was awkward silence where the girl and guy had nothing to say. So the guys just left her and went to his friends.
And so they were still pretty close for a few months. They whatsapp-ed each other and whatnot.
But then, all of the sudden, the guy didn't say "hi" to her at all. He instantly became a stranger to the girl. And the guy was okay with it. Showing no care or anything towards it. The girl wasn't really sad about it because the girl had expected it to happen.
The girl got used to being ignored and all so she just lived her life, without him. It's not a sad story but it just shows that even the person you're really close to, can even leave you in the end.
Like everyone else, he left the girl too.
And now, the girl has to deal with it, alone.
xoxo, Madihah.
November 1, 2012
Strangers
Strangers.
Yes, strangers. But not those kind of strangers, I mean the strangers that we were once so close but all of the sudden, it all just, stops. You don’t talk to them anymore, they don’t even show any effort to say a simple “hi” to you and yeah, everything just, stops.
I’ve been in that situation a bunch of times. It really hurts. It makes me don’t want to get close to anyone anymore. It makes me scared. I hate it when someone leaves me. I just hate it. I even feel like punching those people. If I had known that they’d leave me in the end, I wouldn’t even talk to them. I would’ve just ignored them. To save myself, of course.
Well, I got used to all of this. It’s not a new thing to me now. It’s just one of those phases where you HAVE to ignore everyone in order to make them realize that I’m actually important to them. But I doubt that’ll ever happen so, whatever.
In conclusion of it all, never, I repeat, never, leave someone hanging and making them all look stupid. And if you do it anyway, don’t come back to that person out of the blue and by just saying “I’m sorry”. Why? Because it doesn’t work that way.
If you were in their shoes, you’d know how they felt.
Yes, strangers. But not those kind of strangers, I mean the strangers that we were once so close but all of the sudden, it all just, stops. You don’t talk to them anymore, they don’t even show any effort to say a simple “hi” to you and yeah, everything just, stops.
I’ve been in that situation a bunch of times. It really hurts. It makes me don’t want to get close to anyone anymore. It makes me scared. I hate it when someone leaves me. I just hate it. I even feel like punching those people. If I had known that they’d leave me in the end, I wouldn’t even talk to them. I would’ve just ignored them. To save myself, of course.
Well, I got used to all of this. It’s not a new thing to me now. It’s just one of those phases where you HAVE to ignore everyone in order to make them realize that I’m actually important to them. But I doubt that’ll ever happen so, whatever.
In conclusion of it all, never, I repeat, never, leave someone hanging and making them all look stupid. And if you do it anyway, don’t come back to that person out of the blue and by just saying “I’m sorry”. Why? Because it doesn’t work that way.
If you were in their shoes, you’d know how they felt.
September 26, 2012
Bestfriends
The people who stick with you through thick and thin (Other than your family, of course)
Some people have only one bestfriend, some have many. Well for me, I don't have a lot of bestfriends but they are enough to make me happy when I'm sad. My bestfriends are Tasnim (my cousin), Puteri, Sabrina, Alisya and Hanis.
We all have bestfriends and also ex-bestfriends. I have both. Well, they become my "ex-bestfriends" because we didn't talk for a long time and they all got the wrong idea of me hating them and etc etc. But we got our stories straight and said sorry but we didn't get back together. I don't really know why but I do miss them though. I really hope that one day, my ex-bestfriends and my current bestfriends would all be bestfriends, in the future. That'd be nice.
I tell almost everything to my bestfriends. They are my diary, my sisters and my family. I can't imagine how I would live if I hadn't met them. We do almost everything together. If someone can't do it, none of us will. We stick together and rarely fight. If we did, it would only last for a few minutes and we'd get back together, make jokes and laugh together again. We help each other and sometimes, cut class together haha lol no I'm just joking (maybe) hehehe
I'm glad I got to know them. I love them all so much! I really hope we'd stay together, forever. InsyaAllah...
With love, Madihah.
School and some other stuff
Hi there! Haven't updated about school for awhile. So yeah, here it goes!
I got up at 6am and got ready. Went to school and arrived at 7.20am. Talked with Puteri, Sabrina and Alisya. Got into class and learnt some stuff lol I don't even remember. Then, it was Life Skills subject, we had to go to the life skills class. Puteri and I got down the stairs while Alisya and Sabrina was behind us. As we got down, we went the other way to the stairs beside it cause we saw cikgu Azman. Puteri and I laughed cause we were shocked lol. As we were walking, I saw Danial Ariffin and his friends right beside us. I walked right beside them quickly till I almost ran haha I was shy and I don't even know why. Then, Puteri and I was in front of them. Puteri and I still laughed like a lot haha then one of Danial's friend teased Puteri haha. We walked quickly to the class and got in straightaway.
Sabrina and I would always catch Danial looking at us. Sometimes when I'm sitting alone in my class, I would see him and his friend walk by my class. And then Danial would look at me, but when I look at him, he'd look somewhere else. Funny...
So yeah, bye x
I got up at 6am and got ready. Went to school and arrived at 7.20am. Talked with Puteri, Sabrina and Alisya. Got into class and learnt some stuff lol I don't even remember. Then, it was Life Skills subject, we had to go to the life skills class. Puteri and I got down the stairs while Alisya and Sabrina was behind us. As we got down, we went the other way to the stairs beside it cause we saw cikgu Azman. Puteri and I laughed cause we were shocked lol. As we were walking, I saw Danial Ariffin and his friends right beside us. I walked right beside them quickly till I almost ran haha I was shy and I don't even know why. Then, Puteri and I was in front of them. Puteri and I still laughed like a lot haha then one of Danial's friend teased Puteri haha. We walked quickly to the class and got in straightaway.
Sabrina and I would always catch Danial looking at us. Sometimes when I'm sitting alone in my class, I would see him and his friend walk by my class. And then Danial would look at me, but when I look at him, he'd look somewhere else. Funny...
So yeah, bye x
September 23, 2012
Pavilion with Tasnim
Last week, I went to Pavilion with my cousin, Tasnim. She's the same age as me, but she stays at Bangi. So anyway, we hung out at Pavilion, just the two of us, for the first time haha.
We arrived there around 11.30am. There weren't many people there at that day. We went to the cinema first to buy tickets. We wanted to watch "The Watch" hahaha yeah "watch the watch" hahaha ok continue
We were afraid to watch that movie cause it's 18+ but we bought it anyway lol the movie wasn't THAT bad at all. Sheesh. So after we both bought the tickets, we had 15 minutes to go around Pavilion so yeah we did. Went to Gardian, Speedy and bought some albums. After that, we went back to the cinema to watch the movie. When we arrived there, our hearts were pounding like hell! We were so scared haha but we cover line lah.
We gave the worker the tickets and yay! we got in. We ran up the stairs cause we were terrified lol. The cinema weren't full as usual so we just sit there and watched the movie. The movie was awesome! We loved the movie cause it was a comedy and we wanted to watch something that's funny and that movie was perfect! Later on, we roamed around again and then went to the food court cause we were hungry. We both ordered Beef Dolsot Bibimbap from the korean stall. It was freaking delicious man! I totally recommend you people to taste that thanggg
While we were eating, we talked about some stuff and Tasnim spazzed because there were a lot of korean people around us haha. Pavilion is usually fulled with american people but I don't know why for some reason at that time, korean people were all around there haha. Tasnim got lucky I guess x)
After we finished eating, we went to the Famous Amos cookies stall cause I'm obsessed with cookies, yes. Hehe.
And then we walked all around Pavilion and bought some stuff and then at 5pm, we went home. So, yeah, there it goes! Haha bye
xxx
Madihah.
We arrived there around 11.30am. There weren't many people there at that day. We went to the cinema first to buy tickets. We wanted to watch "The Watch" hahaha yeah "watch the watch" hahaha ok continue
We were afraid to watch that movie cause it's 18+ but we bought it anyway lol the movie wasn't THAT bad at all. Sheesh. So after we both bought the tickets, we had 15 minutes to go around Pavilion so yeah we did. Went to Gardian, Speedy and bought some albums. After that, we went back to the cinema to watch the movie. When we arrived there, our hearts were pounding like hell! We were so scared haha but we cover line lah.
We gave the worker the tickets and yay! we got in. We ran up the stairs cause we were terrified lol. The cinema weren't full as usual so we just sit there and watched the movie. The movie was awesome! We loved the movie cause it was a comedy and we wanted to watch something that's funny and that movie was perfect! Later on, we roamed around again and then went to the food court cause we were hungry. We both ordered Beef Dolsot Bibimbap from the korean stall. It was freaking delicious man! I totally recommend you people to taste that thanggg
While we were eating, we talked about some stuff and Tasnim spazzed because there were a lot of korean people around us haha. Pavilion is usually fulled with american people but I don't know why for some reason at that time, korean people were all around there haha. Tasnim got lucky I guess x)
After we finished eating, we went to the Famous Amos cookies stall cause I'm obsessed with cookies, yes. Hehe.
And then we walked all around Pavilion and bought some stuff and then at 5pm, we went home. So, yeah, there it goes! Haha bye
xxx
Madihah.
September 14, 2012
Alone.
Hey there! Now I'm at home, alone. My mom is at Kota Bharu, my dad is working, my sister is at the hospital, my brother is somewhere... I don't know where lol.
So freaking bored right now. I don't know what to do except online, watch tv, blogging and other stuff. And I'm starting to play club penguin again. Oh it's some type of online chatting game like gaiaonline, migoland, zwinky, habbo and etc. It's quite fun though even though I have grown up.
I've been good, I guess. A little bit okay/fine or whatever. Well sometimes I do feel emo and lonely. But that's just something that I have to deal with and get over with/move on and such. I have to accept the fact that it's over even if I didn't even want it to. So, yeah. Bye.
xoxo, Madihah.
So freaking bored right now. I don't know what to do except online, watch tv, blogging and other stuff. And I'm starting to play club penguin again. Oh it's some type of online chatting game like gaiaonline, migoland, zwinky, habbo and etc. It's quite fun though even though I have grown up.
I've been good, I guess. A little bit okay/fine or whatever. Well sometimes I do feel emo and lonely. But that's just something that I have to deal with and get over with/move on and such. I have to accept the fact that it's over even if I didn't even want it to. So, yeah. Bye.
xoxo, Madihah.
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